Do you ever think of your divorced partner?

Every day. Its rarely good thoughts but mostly just sadness. It doesnt really feel like wasted time, just time. It was 20 years, vacations, Christmas's, children,family,funerals,utility bills,houses,jobs, we did it all together-and argued through most of it. I often pondered the single life late in our marriage, not the partying and the freedom, just getting away from the bitching and the enbrence of her families problems, and they were plentiful. Drugs, money issues, just crazy. And they all trickled down to our household in some form. When she had an affair, I had my out. But all of a sudden I wanted to fix it...WTH? Her subsequent craziness for months made that impossible. 3 years now after separation and 2 years after divorce sometimes a deep sadness of I dont know what comes over me. Im not sure what it is. Nothing seems to replace the family unit that once was. I sometimes wonder what she is doing. I dont really care who she is dating but when I don hear about it somtimes it seems to bother me. The biggest hurdle of all seems to be sitting in an empty house thinking about what once was and wondering "is this all their is?" Im sorry to have rambled. but if you are asking the above question, Im thinking you are having some of those same feelings. Hope it helped. The good thing-we all survive.